I realized this past weekend that I forgot how to shop. I drove around from store to store, walked through the mall looking for items on my nursing supply list and continuously walked out of stores empty handed. I am so trained to not spend money that even when I am given a stipend specifically for shopping I am still afraid to do it. I consider this an asset seeing how I have been in and out of debt many times. I have learned from my mistakes, and I am proud to have come this far. However, I really did need to get the stuff on the list…so eventually I broke down and spent the money. And even though it was a little scary…
IT WAS SO FUN!!
I bought my books, highlighters, pens, post-its…you know, all that fun school supply stuff that I get giddy over. Because I am a nerd. And I love the smell of Sharpies. I spent the weekend cleaning and rearranging my office, and now I have a space all to myself to study and write. And Tony is not allowed in. Seriously. Because he’s a messy boy…I banished him and his piles of receipts and guitar picks to the basement.
Tony took me out on a real date Saturday night…dinner and a movie…and when he asked me if I would like to go out on a date I fainted in surprise. And then he slapped me across the face to wake me up and I jumped into his arms and said, “Yes! Yes, I would LOVE to go out on a date with you!” Okay, none of that happened except the date part. But that’s how excited I was to not eat frozen spinach because that was the only food left in the house.